Snowfall trickles like magic upon the wind. I barely remember the joy of being a child in the snow, but I have seen that joy many times. This time a vole scurried across a child’s shoe as the snow fell, seeking shelter in the reeds from the prying footsteps of humans. This is a magnificent time of year for finding wildlife and guiding young humans through the process of experiencing winter. Get out and enjoy. Find tracks. Follow them as closely as you can, for as far as you can. Get lost in a thicket, but not too lost. I know I will.
Author: Gossamer Naturalist
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January 9th, 2025
Home is the snow covering the smooth layer of ice between our feet and the frozen subnivean zone beneath our feet. That snow That snow could have come from the Pacific or the Canadian Great Plains, but it fell here, upon this class of fourth graders I lead through prairie, wood, and wetland. The falling snow helps them hide during a game of thicket and makes the ice that they walk upon even more slippery than before. These children may not remember the strategies of predators and prey species, but they will remember the joy found in the snow, rather than just the chores of shoveling and trudging that the snow presents.
My memories of the naturalists of my childhood are not of ecological fact telling. They are of songs and story tellers, and the teacher who would allow us to feel the wildness of an urban park and of our own selves. A naturalist is a provider and facilitator of these experiences. Events like snowfalls and finding the remains of prey remind me- simply facilitate. Give the opportunity. Play the game, tell the story. Adults need to debrief these things, to interrogate their lessons. Children don’t need that. Prioritize the experience, their minds and interactions will do the rest, especially when given the space to write or speak their stories. They know the principles of camouflage, stillness, and misdirection. Let them experience these in a game and enjoy the falling snow of a winter afternoon.
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January 8th, 2025
Today I took a walk in a new place, learning the curves of its trails and the sounds of its waters. I had just received some disappointing news, and my vision blurred with the icy wind and the resurfacing of long held professional woes. When your vision blurs in such a way in the sunshine freeze of a Minnesota winter, a sort of tunnel vision forms. That which is directly in front of you becomes the object of focus. While my peripheral vision fades to a blur, the center comes into a sharp and present focus.
In my walk, I come across a bridge across a creek, narrow and tilting with the ebb of freezing and thawing ground. In this strange snowless Minnesota winter, the creek beneath that bridge is frozen like glass. Its ice layer is smooth and clear and even more see through-able than the towers that rise in Downtown Minneapolis. In my vision focused state, I spot movement. I am watching fish swimming, dancing, beneath this frozen glass. They bob and weave and fight against the current to in place, while the creek moves in its thin glass casing of ice. This water flows to the Mississippi, and so to I believe do these fish. They are both of the same system that feeds the life that flows through the skyscapers of downtown, and then on to the Gulf and the Atlantic. Who knows what links and connections these fish will form, and where they will do so.
Along with the concept of the interconnectedness of all things comes a mystery. If all things are connected, then how are they connected? What is the family tree of a moment, and how wide do we make that circle. A naturalist answers that question situationally, in every interaction with the public. How wide do I make the circle connecting this frozen pond to the great circulatory system of the Atlantic. Today those circles include the road bordering one side of the creek, the marsh on the other, and the great Mississippi River beyond either. These fish swimming beneath the ice are important. In the flicks of their tails and the coloration of their scales, they tell me that this creek is healthy, despite or because of human action. As a naturalist I communicate that hope and health, and help others see those stories.
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What is A Naturalist?
Recently while sitting around in conversation after a program, my co-worker turned to us and said something along the lines of “We’re all naturalists here, I just assumed we all had biology degrees.” It was a beautiful autumn day, and myself and five other naturalists were gasping for air after hours of field trip programming for first graders. We had each spent the morning walking through golden lit forests, building shelters, and finding bats, all while answering the questions of curious minds of of running children. I forget the way we ended up questioning the nature of a naturalist, but am deeply familiar with my co-workers sentiment.
It is something I have encountered numerous times, most frequently in urban areas. It is a sentiment I encountered while talking with a principal of an elementary school in St. Paul, who when I told him I was pursuing a degree in environmental education asked “Ah, so you want to be a science teacher”. Or, there was the time that I was offered a job at a local charter school. When I asked what position I would be taking on, the director of the school answered, “well science, duh!”. There is an assumption present in these statements that a naturalist or environmental educator is in essence a science teacher in an outdoor setting. Some of you reading may share that philosophy. And I understand it. As I write this, I feel entirely silly myself for having taken a very different path into the profession of being a naturalist. A Naturalist IS a science educator, but is also so much more. A Naturalist thinks in history, biology, sociology, art, and all sorts of other fields in order to interlink a community with its ecosystem. So what exactly is a Naturalist?
For now, I think I am satisfied just asking the question. Throwing it out there into the cyber void. Maybe tomorrow I’ll try to describe one thing a naturalist is. Then maybe a couple days later I will describe another thing a naturalist is. For now though, the autumn has ended, and it is time for me to take a walk to Lake of the Isles in new fallen snow, greeting the three cardinals in my bird feeder on the way.
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Thank God I am Not a Space Whale
“Thank God I’m not a space whale,” I think to myself with my ear crushed against the yoga studio floor, “for if I were a space whale, I would be doomed to forever wander in wonder in the vastness, the grand vacuum. And I wouldn’t be able to experience this…”. The class below is playing one of my favorite songs, and its reverberations pulse through the floor in a steady rhythm, in opposition to the pristine calm of the Yin class above. My body, folded in tension and discomfort, exists in contrast with my mind, stretched out in perfect stillness. In the contrast I am in revery. My lover is on the next mat over from mine. Our hands nearly touch on the rough wooden floor. I am not a space whale. I am here. I am human. I am experience and thought held together by blood and flesh.
As my body folds over itself so too does my mind, finding the parallax between the energy below and the calm within. Every muscle and thought folding into each other, held together by experience and sensation. Thus, I think to myself in gratitude, thanking whatever higher power there may be, whether God, Karma, or lover, that I am me, existing in this moment on the yoga studio floor, folded into my imagination.
Space is vast. Potentially infinite, though more likely simply big. We can observe a 93 billion light year bubble, growing every day on some upon unknown substrate, teeming with vibrating strings of energy. Their pulse is probability and fills reality with more versions of itself than can possibly be known. Yet on the scale of sensation, of that which we may perceive and experience, space is deeply empty. Something around 96 percent of the universe is made up of stuff that cannot be seen, felt, or heard. I think of dark energy and dark matter as Karma without experience. Energy without spark. Lack of suffering. Lack of anything. Perfection. The rest of the universe isn’t so diverse either. Seven types of stars and seventeen types of planets, composed of and separated by one hundred some types of matter, scattered.in small bubbles hung together by gravity, the vastness of perfection in between. All incredibly breathtaking, all incredibly boring. So little variety in the inky darkness of dust and neutrinos.
Thank God I am not a space whale, I think as I am folded over on the yoga studio floor. If I were I would be cursed to wander forever the void of the universe. Imagine that. Floating between the stars as though they were a sea, following the gravitational flow of galaxies from system to system, taking in everything. Every gas giant, every chunk of rock burning or freezing or just right and bursting with blue. Forever dreaming of observing the death of a star. Would the pale blue dot of the Earth be but a mote of dust in my wanderings, of the same amount of interest as a roadside attraction? Or would it be repulsive to my biology, an object of fear and dread, so adapted to the inky black as I would be?
On the yoga studio floor, I am for a moment that space whale, staring down at a chaotic planet of joy and pain. My keen eyes see the Whittier neighborhood, photons reflected off speeding cars, record stores, and folks walking between destinations. There is no medium for sound or smell in my home amongst the vacuum, so I can only observe the people in child’s pose through the yoga studio glass. Just for a moment I am that wanderer, bound to bearing witness to the birth and death of stars and planets. Always witness to experience, but never the one who experiences. A creature of wonder in our imaginations, sentenced forever to wander the void of eternity.
Here I am. My ear pressed against the wood floor, the sun weeping photons into my eyes. I am a being of Earth, experiencing life regardless of will. Doomed to experience with little time to observe. I am brought back to myself. The song changes. The vibrations through to floor slow, and my teacher calls me to a new posture. My body rises without the intervention of my mind, instinct pushing me forward. I experience every speck of light falling upon my body reflecting know the colors I portray myself to be. I am called back to experiencing my present moment, instead of merely observing it. feeling the contraction of each muscle on my way to gratitude. Thank God I am not a space whale, I think to myself. Later that night I am crying in my bed, remembering I am cursed and blessed to experience, and to someday end. My lover holds me. In my dreams, I wander from star to aching star.
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Towards being a Science Teacher in 2022
I apologize that is has been so long. The past two weeks have been a time of going back and forth between the Twin Cities and the Northwoods, followed by a time of catching up with myself. While this has allowed much time for thinking and reflecting, it hasn’t left much for writing. I’m pretty okay with that, and I’m hoping that I may be able to devote more time to my writing self soon, as I have six whole things I would love to write. Not just yet though, because big life changes are happening.
Within just a month or so I will be starting a position as a science teacher at an amazing charter school in an urban/suburban setting. I’ve always been opposed to seeing myself as a science teacher. When I am asked what I’m going to school for, what I will do to earn a living, I always answer “Environmental Education” which is sometime always met with (when talking to folks in the traditional education system), “Oh so you want to be a science teacher, good for you!” a response I am endlessly annoyed by and yet suddenly find myself in the position of being. All of a sudden I have to ask myself some questions. What is this whole Science or STE(A)M thing? And how do we practice teaching science while preparing students to honorably interact with the world around them?
My class starts as students file in, expecting a video and a worksheet as they have done for the past couple years. They are surprised when we find ourselves in a circle, with the questions on the board being “What is Science” and “How do we practice science?” My objective in this class is to give my students the tools they need to notice the interactions within the world they live in, and document the phenomenon they sense everyday as interesting and noteworthy. Rather than discovering facts about the world around them, I want them to be able to see the world through the perspective of a geologist, chemist, or physicist. I want to take my students to the park nearby to do real science, through curiosity, observation, and an app called iNaturalist. I hope that I can show them how different types of scientists view the world, and ask them how they view the world in a similar or different way. I want them to question the western scientific method, and ask how science is to be best conducted in the 21st century. Most of all I want them to do four things.
Notice the thing
Get curious about the thing
Document the thing
Think about how the thing connects to other things.
I honestly have no idea how similar or different this philosophy of teaching science is from any other teacher out there. I have no idea if it will work in practice. Maybe I’ll write about it. For now I focus on actually getting there first. And amongst it all I want to keep writing for anyone who would like to read. Mostly to hold myself accountable my next few subjects for this blog are: how place changes us, simplifying our expectations for a just world, challenge hikes, using gardens as a teaching tool, and maybe the conference I’m going to next week.

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Liminal Velocity
This is a piece I wrote at this time last year. Liminal space is the space between, the transition zone between one thing and another. There is always space between the forest and the wetland, a mixture of both where a completely different set of ecological interactions take place. Just as there is a liminal space between us.

Liminal Velocity
Home is the liminal space
Between dream and reality
Like the space between a swamp and a fen
Where the speckled alders and cattails grow together.
A space you occupy
Where we meet in the in between
Of late summer chorus and early mabon fog
The liminal space
That land between the rose garden and the industrial blocks
Where we roam and witness lives
Without really being a part of them
Liminal Velocity
The instant between the story you tell me
and my brain processing the words-
and losing them
in the high of seeing your smile again.
The liminal space
Between having a voice and the
Silence of a lichen
Is not so wide a canyon
As the illusion projected on the screen.
It is a pinch of genetic code, and political gain
Taught by worlds with borders between
Urban and wild
And you and me
Liminal space,
like the sandy shore between my feet and the mantel of the Earth
where things grow and death becomes life
decomposing to a base substance we call dirt.
Soil, a rush of petrichor between the rain and the sun.
blending together with the sound of your laugh
like one essence of laughter and smell,
a dance between sensation.
Liminal Velocity
The space between
my perception of you
and the reality of you-
different forms of the same perception-
is the same as the space between the sea smoke
and the inland sea herself.
The one perception we share. -

Sit Spots
A full year after my mentor, Joe Walewski, gave my cohort of naturalists an assignment I am finally getting a round to actually doing it. It may not end up exactly as he assigned, or even close to that. However I am doing it. Today is my 14th day sitting in the same spot at Corny Beach for at least an hour each day. I have a routine here. Take a picture, sit and watch the waves of Gitchi Gumee and note their intensity (soft, but not still today), read by book (Schools that Heal by ___________), dive into the Lake, then read again as I dry out, switching to my novel (Robert Jordan’s Wheel of Time today). I expect I’ll continue this trend for another week or so until I have to travel for a few days.
Sitting this way, collecting snapshots in time and watching changes every day or week or month is called a sit spot. I don’t know the origin of this practice, someone can hopefully give me a history, but I hope that contemplatively inclined humans have been doing this since the dawn of consciousness. It’s the practice of the Buddha, sitting under the tree and finding enlightenment. It’s the practice of __________. Sometimes we humans are drawn to a place, and we sit there many times in our lives. It’s a practice I have always been pretty bad at until the past two weeks.

My sit spot at Corny Beach as it is today. Through sit spots we can see the world shift between weather and seasons, noting who is doing what and when. Here at Corny Beach, I’ve observed how tourists react to the weather and day of the week. There’s the obvious, with there being fewer folks on a blustery wavey weekend than a bright and warm one. But there’s the not so obvious, like there being so few people here on a perfect and sunny Wednesday. Today I noticed a high number of bee flies swarming about, harmless flies which have evolved to appear like the more painful and more bountiful bee. I notice that the way the Lake moves is changing between the summer and the fall, and the ways various levels of siche effect change the structure of the beach. Maybe tomorrow I will notice the smaller plants and animals at my spot. Having a spot, and visiting it everyday, gives me joy in the knowledge of my place. Here I hold space only for me, give myself a chance to become steady, and just breathe. Even living so close to Lake Superior, sometimes in the details of life it becomes easy to forget she’s there. Making these visits part of my life everyday has made it impossible to forget that the Lake is right there, ready to support me.
If you’re like me, a digital native born in a time of stimulation and content, it can be difficult to just sit in the same spot and observe. Don’t try. Please do have those moments of wonder in which the content washes away, but don’t force it. Don’t force your sit spot either. As you begin this practice just walk around, find yourself somewhere. Sit someday, maybe years from now, maybe tomorrow by the swamp or on that bridge you like. Then, as you find that place for the moment, take out your content whether that’s a book or a journal or crocheting, and let your conscious mind focus on that. The rest of your mind will make observations of the world around it, and give you curiosities to follow as you will. And then, the next, find yourself craving to return to the same spot, and go.

Corny Beach Day 1: Fog over Roman’s Point and perfect sunshine just a mile away. -

Place
Place changes us fundamentally as people. People change as their place changes. Our habits, our emotions, our ways of knowing, all have roots in our biome and social geography. I’ve thrown myself into the waters of Gitchi Gumee each day for the past ten days, and those days have changed my mental space. More on this to come, hopefully on Wednesday. For now, enjoy your place….

The Lake is whimsy…
